My Journey And Relationship With Food


I was watching the video below by It’s Jcanana. I could relate to what she was saying, and it made me think of my own journey with food. As it’s something so personal, it’s easy for other’s to think from the outside “Why should you be self conscious, you’re quite slim.” I really wanted to write this for a long time, and over the years I’d written a few drafts and always ended up not posting them. However, I feel that it’s the right time to write it out. Growing up, I often heard the similar words of, you should eat more and you’re so skinny. I feel that it’s not a compliment, and shouldn’t be, and sometimes it was said that way and other time’s it was said unkindly. It gave me a certain pressure to sustain the weight I was, even though I was in my early teens.

I remember going to markets or clothing stores, and older ladies telling me that the clothes are more likely to fit me than them. I ate very healthily growing up while I was at home, but at the same time I exercised a lot. I woke up every morning before school to go for a run, and every afternoon after school. I drank a lot of water, and generally lived a healthy lifestyle. However, in that aspect I was wanting to be fitter, but I was also wanting to maintain my weight, while still eating as much as I wanted to. It was when I left home at 16 when I became more preoccupied with my weight and body image. I went through a difficult time during 2013 where I hit rock bottom, and I fell into depression. I rarely ate a lot at the uni hall I lived at, and often didn’t have dinner.

When I lived at the hall, I’d buy cereal from the supermarket, and just eat those. I was going to the gym and exercising more, but following my second year, I was eating more, but I ate a lot of oats and often just had that for dinner. When I moved to Sydney for two years, I lost the most weight that I had since my first year at uni. I’d always eaten mostly vegetarian, but it was during this time I decided to go fully vegetarian. However, it made me lose a lot of energy and affected my mood. Now, after doing a lot of research over the years, I eat mainly vegetarian. Last year I cooked a lot for myself, but I really do think the environment we’re in can greatly affect our mood. At the time I wasn’t so happy where I was, but this year is definitely the most happiest I’ve felt in my environment and in my lifestyle.

Last year I went through a period of time where I ate far too much sweets, as I was going through a period of time where I felt stressed. I think it’s so important to eat when you’re hungry, and never deprive yourself. Be in a positive environment, live a healthy lifestyle and gradually change your mindset towards your body through self talk. Self love allows us to nourish our mind, body and soul. It can be frustrating when people assume you aren’t healthy if you’re slim, if you happen to have a small meal you can be judged from it and being pointed out about certain body parts. One of the best changes I’ve made is being with people who are uplifting, and those who don’t focus on the outward appearances.

When you eat a healthy filling breakfast, it can really set the start of the day with a burst of energy. Don’t limit what you eat, but just eat until you are 80% full. We should try to judge less what someone’s body image is, and most of all ourselves. Most of us would never tell a friend that they should be skinnier, because we’d only wish that they are happy and healthy. That is why it’s important to be kinder, because often we can be the most hardest on ourselves. When I went through a period of time where my focus was so set on being at a certain weight, it was an unhealthy pattern and the cycle would continue, but I wouldn’t be truly happy.

Being skinny doesn’t make you happy. It’s the life you choose to live, making a delicious meal, surrounding yourself with positive people and the simple things that give us the greatest joy. We live in a judgmental and superficial society, and so there will always be people who will point out other’s appearances, compare themselves or judge them from the way they look. Our most beautiful self is in our mind and soul, and that kind of beauty takes time to discover from a person. The best that we can do is to be the best person we can be, and focus on living a good life. What is your relationship like with food? How has it changed over the years?

The Wonderful Alternatives To Dairy Milk


After watching the documentary ‘Cowspiracy’ on Netflix, it really opened my eyes to the behind the scenes of the animal agricultural industry. It makes you realise how much advertising sways us away from the core truth, because within food advertisements, the food is taken and so far removed from the animal itself, that we don’t see the advertisement showing the cruelty, blood and pain that it took. Instead you see an image of the juicy delicious looking burger or fried chicken. We don’t see the pain a pig goes through from being beaten, baby chickens being put down chutes for your chicken nuggets, baby cows being taken away from the mother from birth, a cows udders that appear so horribly raw and so on. After having pet pigs, it made me feel even more compassion and empathy for the pigs in factory farms.

Poverty and hunger prevail in the world, where many people starve to death and are not getting enough food to eat. More than a billion people in the world live in poverty. We throw away a lot of vegetable, fruit and meat every year, because we are over producing the amount of food that we can physically eat. However, there are 1/3 of the earth’s ice free land that are occupied with livestock and livestock feed to feed the animals, and as a result for us to consume. It doesn’t seem very ethical. I really hope from the bottom of my heart that if you are reading this, that you will at least consider eating less meat. Eating less meat is not only a great message to send to people and the industry that you don’t want to consume and support their actions, but it’s also beneficial for ones health.

As I watched the video called Best Speech You Will Ever Hear, Yourofsky says imagine a child being inside a cage with an apple and a rabbit. Is it likely that the child will eat the rabbit, and play with the apple? That really struck a cord, because of course not. No child is born with the instinct to catch and eat an animal. When I was taking care of kittens this week, they naturally have the instinct to play with the toy mouse, bite, chew, chase and squeeze it because they are carnivores and are born with the trait of hunting other creatures. If you want to become vegetarian, I really recommend cutting out dairy milk and having alternatives like vegan cheese. I don’t drink dairy milk, because it initially started from feeling congested and getting a runny nose after having it.

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I’ve tried all these kinds of milk, but also wanted to mention hazelnut milk. I had it last week for the first time and it was so delicious and rich! Coconut milk is so great with a matcha latte, almond milk is great for smoothies and soy milk is great in your cereal. It’s natural to be hesitant and perhaps resist taking action to consume less animal products, but I think the best thing is to research and have an understanding of what is going on in the meat and dairy industry. We live in a consumer society and there are so much meat that is disposed of. These are animals that are born and then scheduled to die, and many won’t even be consumed. Eating meat is something we are taught, but I feel that if we grew up being taught the process of the animal to the meat on our plate, it’s very likely we’d consume it less.

When we are born we drink our own mothers milk, and so why would we drink a cows milk as an adult? I’ve always wondered about that, because it doesn’t seem natural to be drinking someone else’s milk. A calf is taken away from their mother as early as 1 day, so that the mother can give milk for us humans to consume. Imagine if you were taken away from your mother the first day and placed in a confined area? A mother cow needs to be pregnant in order to give milk, and this means many cows are raped in order to produce milk for us. From an article here it says: If you drink milk, you’re subsidizing the veal industry. While female calves are slaughtered or kept alive to produce milk, male calves are often taken away from their mothers when they are as young as 1 day old to be chained in tiny stalls for three to 18 weeks and raised for veal.